I am really trying to understand

I am really trying hard to understand Frank's point of view on a lot of things around here, where it concerns me and the kids. My thing is why does he have to sound so cold about it. I know that he tells it like it is, and I respect that, but sometimes it is like he just doesn't care at all, about how it affects people. When he and I get arguing, we get on this subject, and I tell me that he just can't say one thing positive to me about anything in my life, and he tells me that it is because there isn't anything that is positive. That hurts alot. I guess the only thing I can do is try to change, even though that is what I am doing. I need to sit down and figure that out.

I am trying to get stuff going for school, but it seems to be one roadblock after another. Justin's dad isn't paying child support, and that makes it hard, and then there are just things like life. So it is hard. I hope that I can get this started really soon. I want my teaching degree, and would really think that it would make things better financially. We will see.

I went to get Ariel today from soccer practice, and I told her coach that Ariel was going home, because she didn't feel good. Ariel called me from school, and told me that she didn't feel good and that she felt like she was going to throw up. Well she doesn't eat at school. I know that the food isn't the greatest, but she needs to eat, so that she doesn't faint or whatever happens. She is very stubborn.

Well I am off to bed.

Awful start to the week

Well I toook Ariel to get our nails done, and didn't have anyone to sit with Miranda or Justin. So I told them that if they were good, then I would take them to the park. NOT!!!!!!!!!!! It was a nightmare. Justin wanted to go in the car, well instead of staying in the car, he decided to get out and run around the parking lot, I felt like the floor was going to swallow me up. I was so embrassed. I am never taking him again.

On a good note, we got our nails done, and now we are home, and I am going to sit and relax for the rest of the afternoon, until dinner time.

I think Frank is mad, because Ariel asked him for the money to go and get our nails done, and I know I was wrong in letting her. I should be shot for it. I told Ariel we weren't asking him for anything else, and if she did she was in trouble.

Ok, off to eat lunch and stitch